Tomorrow will begin Day 5 of no heat. It was 42 degrees inside our house today when I went by to re-pack more clothes and food to take to our temporary "home" at the in-laws lake house.
I cried tonight on the phone with customer service for our home warranty company. Turns out there is actually ANOTHER part broken on our unit...and they are trying to get a replacement part. She said it could be next week. Cue the tears.
I think I started crying for a couple of reasons. First and foremost, I am almost 13 weeks pregnant. That should explain a lot. But secondly, I think I was crying somewhat because of my own selfishness and unmet "expectations". I wanted her to somehow magically make this new part appear tonight, so we could go home and sleep in our own beds, eat dinner at our own kitchen table, ect. ect. ect.
Unrealistic and unmet expections lead to disappointment. Every time. I read this verse tonight: "Hope deferred makes the heart sick..." Proverbs 13:12 How true, huh? I find myself expecting things from others, expecting people to do this or that a certain way. And then I am disappointed when it does not turn out the way that I WANT IT TO.
The truth is that the only place where we can have real hope and expectation is in Christ. "The Lord is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in Him." Lamentations 3:24